Hopelessness

Well, once again the closer we get to Christmas, the more hopeless I begin to feel. I think I am doomed to be unable to have any successful relationships in my life. I don't even have a good relationship with my young children. I desperately want to have a more involved relationship with them, I'm just not sure how to do it. So many other things get in the way.

Many of the things that interfere are being done on their behalf, such as employment and advancement. I want them to grow up needing for nothing. This world is hard, and more so when you are forced to pass through it alone. Why can I not just have a few things be simple and easy in my life. I'm exhausted now.